Lately, I'm reconnecting. I'm seeing, emailing and calling my semi-lost family and friends I had been isolated from and manipulated against. I'm apologizing for not being the friend, sister, daughter that I wanted to be. I'm thanking my loved ones for still being there and loving me.
Lately, I'm making up for lost time. All the things I wanted to do, but couldn't, I can now. I'm making up for a lot of loss. I'm making a list of what I'll do next.
Lately, I'm rebuilding. I'm putting my life back together and focusing on my goals and dreams in safety and peace.
Lately, I'm letting go. I'm manoeuvring past the twists he put in my mind, discovering normal, releasing stress and tension. Forgetting the negativity and lies he fed and the apologies he never meant.
Lately, I'm feeling happy.
Lately, I'm feeling grateful. Grateful for strength. Grateful I got out. Grateful for family. Grateful for friends. Grateful for life.
Lately, I'm creating. I have blown the dust off my inner artist. I am healing my heart through my art. I am going to continue.
Lately, I'm free. Free from torment. Free from abuse and fear. Free from rules.
Lately, I'm alive. I survived a nightmare I couldn't wake from.
Lately, I'm feeling lucky.
Celia
You don't have to apologize. I know that you want to be a better person but in my eyes you have always been a great person. I love that you have been visiting your family and friends now that you have the time to do so. You are a strong person and you are definately someone I look up to. Never change.
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